Nowadays, I only get slight anxiety over death when I start to think about it too much. A couple of years ago though, I had it real bad. It was really the combination of multiple shit events, my dad's unexpected death, near death encounter when snowboarding, and a seriously traumatic event where the person I was hanging out with one night, dead the same night. My anxiety was really how easy it was to die, and that death can happen at any point. I really only have my mom when it comes to family, dad's side of the family chose money over both of us, and can't talk communicate well with my mom's side. So I go some nights thinking that anything could happen to my mom, and that's it, I've lost it all. I recall one time went out for a job and was running late, so I almost had a breakdown. Cracked my skull snowboarding as well, fucking up really badly on the ramp, which resulted in me passing out, and having a seizure. Then three years ago, was at a house party, and one of the guys who I was hanging out with went off with a group of kids to end the night at another home, found out that morning that whilst intoxicated, he jumped off the balcony, got his foot stuck on the wooden fence, and banged his head onto the floor. The fact that it happened the exact same night, and how easy it all went away just traumatized me immensely, regardless of the fact that I hadn't known him that much at all. After these events, I couldn't bring myself to go snowboarding again, I was just too scared, and I'd be just like you mate, couldn't sleep at night. It's really shit, and it's not simple. It just took time, and not thinking about it at all, doing what I enjoyed, and trying to make the most out of my life. When you die, you will be in peace. One of the things that helped was to not think that death was quite literally nothing, but that it is the unknown, you don't know what it's like until you're there.
@Asstr0