Serious for anyone interested

[Raiden]

Yeah so,

For anyone interested: My life's been pretty fucked recently and I've recently done and said things under the influence of a lot of drinking that I regret now. I've effectively had a 5-day anger spout due to shit that has nothing to do with this community yet I took it out on people who deserved it the least.

@Havok - the shit I spewed at you was borderline retarded and not something I saw myself as capable of, especially considering you're a friend and the shit that I said to you wasn't how you speak to your friends

@rob for fucking ignoring you despite the fact that you are obviously the nicest person around

@lucid for being openly aggressive and somewhat challenging to you even if what we are talking about is the most MINOR fucking shit imaginable

@Nashi for that random ass argument which was top-tier retarded

@other people who I've just been a general dick to for no apparent reason

I'll be focusing my energy on other projects within HL2RP for the time being, trying not to 'bubble' myself in one area of the server but rather experience the server in different ways.

not really looking for attention with this thread, or people going "we forgive you raiden aaa" because that's not what I care about at the moment, but rather just to publically state the people mentioned above are generally great guys who didn't deserve the shit i threw at em

alright peace

 

[Ond]

if you arent doing hot then this place most definitely isn't the place for you to be

 

[Raiden]

if you arent doing hot then this place most definitely isn't the place for you to be

situation has calmed down now and I've managed to reflect on the problems and im trying to build upon it - last thing i want to do right now is give up on all the good times im having with people beside the shit that i said in the past.

 

[Deleted member 6062]

@rob for fucking ignoring you despite the fact that you are obviously the nicest person around

i like to imagine the messages i sent you left some form of positive impact, didn't really pay much attention to whether you were ignoring me or not :-]

 

[nash]

@Nashi for that random ass argument which was top-tier retarded

is ok

 

[Raiden]

i like to imagine the messages i sent you left some form of positive impact, didn't really pay much attention to whether you were ignoring me or not :-]

yeah yeah i get that but for the last few nights ive just been in no position to reply in any way that would seem adequate to the positivity you were giving to me

either way if someone who is trying to be nice talks to you and you just ignore them for no good reason you're not a morally sound person, in my eyes

 

[lucid]

one thing I learned is time heals pretty much all wounds, I was in a similar rough spot a long while ago - blacklisted from all union factions, slapped with an eight week ban, and I was associated with K4E as a 'meme shotcopper.' to top it off, I put alex's name into disrepute by being a super retard, which resulted in a near-permaban. thankfully he was lenient.

I've recovered from this simply by trying my best be an okay dude and avoiding trouble. I've gained my whitelists back and I'm in a much better place, which is easily achievable for you.

you just need to give it time and actively better yourself. if you do this, you'll be back in no time and you'll be wondering why you were ever concerned.

 

[Raiden]

one thing I learned is time heals pretty much all wounds, I was in a similar rough spot a long while ago - blacklisted from all union factions, slapped with an eight week ban, and I was associated with K4E as a 'meme shotcopper.' to top it off, I put alex's name into disrepute by being a super retard, which resulted in a near-permaban. thankfully he was lenient.

I've recovered from this simply by trying my best be an okay dude and avoiding trouble. I've gained my whitelists back and I'm in a much better place, which is easily achievable for you.

you just need to give it time and actively better yourself. if you do this, you'll be back in no time and you'll be wondering why you were ever concerned.

truth is i care less about the whitelists ive lost and more about the friends i lost

 

[Erkor]

take a break whenever u feel like shit lad

 

[lucid]

truth is i care less about the whitelists ive lost and more about the friends i lost

it still applies - havok will forgive you in time, as will anyone else. you sperged out, but you didn't say anything that'll permanently fuck you over.

 

[Deleted member 1392]

hey man I may be a little shit twat who was like a little bro to you and annoyed the living fuck outta you on ts3 but you can hit me up on steam if you want

 

[cns - he/him/his]

roleplay insight
if you arent having fun go have fun somewhere else
hope you are well or become well

 

[Deleted member 6062]

roleplay insight
if you arent having fun go have fun somewhere else
hope you are well or become well

i hop onto the server for 30-60 minutes a day to please my UM daddys and that's really about it
any other time is spent with a friend who wanted me on :-]

 

[cns - he/him/his]

i hop onto the server for 30-60 minutes a day to please my UM daddys and that's really about it
any other time is spent with a friend who wanted me on :-]

I just bought Yakuza 0 and am currently playing GMod to make a shitpost

 

[Ond]

I just bought Yakuza 0 and am currently playing GMod to make a shitpost

ah

i see youre a man of culture as well

 

[Deleted member 6062]

I just bought Yakuza 0 and am currently playing GMod to make a shitpost

sometimes i hop onto gm_construct just to make a meme :-]

 

[Tzula]

Yeah so,

For anyone interested: My life's been pretty fucked recently and I've recently done and said things under the influence of a lot of drinking that I regret now. I've effectively had a 5-day anger spout due to shit that has nothing to do with this community yet I took it out on people who deserved it the least.

@Havok - the shit I spewed at you was borderline retarded and not something I saw myself as capable of, especially considering you're a friend and the shit that I said to you wasn't how you speak to your friends

@rob for fucking ignoring you despite the fact that you are obviously the nicest person around

@lucid for being openly aggressive and somewhat challenging to you even if what we are talking about is the most MINOR fucking shit imaginable

@Nashi for that random ass argument which was top-tier retarded

@other people who I've just been a general dick to for no apparent reason

I'll be focusing my energy on other projects within HL2RP for the time being, trying not to 'bubble' myself in one area of the server but rather experience the server in different ways.

not really looking for attention with this thread, or people going "we forgive you raiden aaa" because that's not what I care about at the moment, but rather just to publically state the people mentioned above are generally great guys who didn't deserve the shit i threw at em

alright peace

ESO RP is always open Raiden.......

nah its ok, I hope things get better though.