Serious Reflection 2018

[Cindy]

In a continuing streak of some pretty awful years, 2018 has been pretty exhausting for most. A lot has happened on the local and global stage. We're constantly learning about the world around us, the people we interact with, and ourselves- and we never stop learning. Especially for the young ages that most of us are, being late teens to young adults, we do a great deal of self reflection throughout the course of our youth.

If you don't mind, I'd love to hear what your guy's reflections were on the year. What'd you learn? Where did you succeed? Where did you fail? What will you miss and what are you hoping to leave behind? You can talk about your time on Nebulous or your real life, whichever you feel like.



For me, 2018 was the year that I crawled out from a dark hole in my youth that I never thought I'd escape from. Severe depression, mental instability and crippling vices were something of a regularity for me ever since elementary and I can't say it's been a smooth experience growing up not having the connections and the people to help me climb over my life obstacles. Towards the end of this year, I don't know what it was but something woke me up from a deep sleep and I felt like my eyes opened for the very first time. I found my self worth- something that I've been looking for most of my life. I can't say that I'm entirely void of insecurities or anxieties but I can say that there has been a great weight lifted from my shoulders and it's something I'll be happy to leave behind me entering the new year.

I also decided to pursue my hobby of writing even further. I've been working on a novel for some time now and I found clarity with what I wanted to do with my life. A great deal of the future is still unwritten for me but at the very least I know which direction I am headed in.

 

[Gimmie]

First half of the year I got screwed over in college, stressed and depressed I decided to take a year off and get some actual work experience under my belt.

Probably one of the best decisions I've made, been really happy working where I am even if it is hard work. The colleagues are great and I couldn't be happier where I am currently.

Planning on going back to college after summer vacation next year and go a different route.

 

[Akula]

it's been a pretty massive year for me, finally being able to accept who I was, beginning my transition and also coming out to my family and close friends definitely wasn't easy, but even this early it's still well goddamn worth it since I can go most days without hating pretty much everything about myself and everyone around me.

I still have some bad days, depression, anxiety, and dysphoria still rear their ugly heads now and again but they're much more managable and rarer than they were. Having to face the exclusion and discrimination that comes with being a person like me was pretty jarring, and I think a big factor in my recent personality shift.

I used to take people for granted, and I took my anger out on those around me a lot, come to think of it. I didn't really treat people right and I tended to fuck people over and be a general jackass to get epic zings and some credibility from random people on the internet, pretty glad I'm past that. I feel I'm a much more chill person now, and I think most would agree.

Physically I've started eating way less crappy food and excercising a whole lot more, it's doing wonders honestly. I've already lost about ten kilos and it's pretty helpful for my mental state, keeping things focused and all that.

All in all, a lot of ups and a whole fuck ton of downs, but it's the start of a path to a better place for me.

 

[Ond]

best year of my life

 

[afric]

survived the longest so far

 

[DoubleD]

got a job
turned 17
resigned from sa
got demoted from moderator

what else can I say? it was a great year

 

[the last man]

2018 i started enjoying my time on neb on another level. Got made SA, got some great rp experiences and started to lead cab.

as for real life, it started off really fucked, got a bit more shit then became alright. Started to lean toward a bit more fucked again after that, which will be a trend that spills into 2019 most likely but i'll hang on gamers

 

[Con the god of fire]

In 2018 I found Nebulous (Which is a good thingbtw)
I got a new gaming PC that I love more then life
Got a new car, that I sold and now have a sexy jeep.
Bought a sexy new shotgun that I also love so very much
But most of all I made some new friends here at nebulous (JK) Most of you have no idea who I am.

 

[mert]

in 2018 i made the horrible mistake of returning back to neb

 

[Erkor]

my entire year was boring up until october

real talk, the only thing that hooked me into hl2rp again was @Hoovie 's proxy offer to join CAB and @Shrike letting me into the faction subsequently

for once i felt like there was more to hl2rp than afking in the RDC and walking in circles as a CP. naturally i spent half my time writing headcanons and asking hoovie for lore advice, which eventually turned into me and him working on the sector manifest, which in turn made me a member of the lore team. flash forward like a week or two, and stress made him resign.

i didn't know where to go with the job i had, even if it's more of a fancy title and a free card to say "i help bq write lore", and i tried hard to write and explain caveats that were, up until then, footnotes (e.g. the memory replacement doc) or incredibly inconsistent (e.g. the intranet doc; although that isn't a rule to follow, and instead moreso a guideline)

at that point it felt nice that people liked the docs i was writing, up until the point i posted the dreaded character bio, which — probably justifiably — was made fun of to no end.

i considered just stopping any writing i had in mind then and there. flemming was a character i worked on for months and, if hoovie was there, chances would be that the doc would have been released either way — with the same result, no doubt (and perhaps hoovie getting blame as well, for greenlighting it).

october to yesterday was stressful and not fun, but i hope that'd clear up in the future and make my time more enjoyable than it is

god bless xoxo

 

[Knight]

Pretty boring year for me, I got my driver's license back in February

This year I think is going to be a lot more since I'll be getting a car as well as a job

 

[Postal]

year of cringe and meltdowns and it was hilarious